Like a Bird Without a Feather

Christmas went well.  No holiday-eve fights at bars, although my family was out untill 1AM on Christmas eve, at a bar.

Some of my family is on very, VERY tight budgets.  The one thing that has always made me worry more than anything is money.  My grandparents live check to check, and have to work jobs as seniors in order to be able to afford anything beyond pay for bills and eat meagerly.  My mother and step-father I believe are also having money troubles, but I feel it may just be a tight budget time as they adjust to having a mortgage and the such.  All of it makes me feel very bad.  I don't know, anytime I've heard anyone in my family having a tough time with money, I just start to cry.  As I said before, stress from money is the only thing that really gets to me, and I can't stand to see my family live a very hard life.

especially when it used to be my grandmother who always made the decent living, and she would spoil us with presents as children.  Now she gives me $25 and I feel bad for taking it.  Like, I want to cry because of it.

When I make money, I will take care of them.  They will not have to worry about money.  I will also help my sister out with school expenses.

However, my family has proceeded to crack me up with presents.  I asked for highlighters of certain colors in packs, and my mother got me the 5 colors in one pack, and said she had to look at 5 stores to find that combination.  I won't lie, I honestly figured they would just give me whatever they found.